The picture above is not us. It could be KC, but I have a few more hours in the gym until I'm at that point. Possible, but just not there yet.
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Sunday, August 3, 2008
3rd Anniversary
Our 3rd wedding anniversary was on Thursday and with Megan hanging out with little guy, we decided to make a big night of it. Off to Union we went with an agreement that we could order anything we wanted to and face the consequence, come what may. The only thing I regret is the second bottle of wine that I unknowingly finished off all by myself! Needless to say the next day was a huge drag and I almost didn't make it to work. After 4 months of zero booze, it really hit me hard. Happy Anniversary to my wonderful, intelligent, funny and kind husband. I love you.
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Dressing room confession
I grabbed my hipster sis (bonafide with tats and all) and headed to the Gap last week in search of a new pair of jeans. My current ones are either A) ugly as shit and teetering on the edge of looking like Lee Jeans with the pointed pockets that don't rest on your hips but go all up half your back making it look like your ass is huge and long and disturbing, or B) too big. Now I know that Gap doesn't have quality, but that wasn't what I was looking for really. I needed a transitional pair. A pair that I wouldn't mind wearing everyday for the next two months then throwing away (if I felt too guilty donating them because they were gross and faded and worn). I grabbed what I thought was a size 16 off the rack and headed to the dressing room. Megan, Charlie (in stroller) and I squeezed into a tiny booth and I tried them on. Sweet baby Jesus they fit! I was so proud of myself and so excited to be in fucking Gap jeans that I screamed and whooped and hollered right there in the dressing room, jumping up and down and hugging my sister. I didn't realize until I got home that they were a size 18. Damn.
And of course I look like the above picture in them too.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
The long road.
So, I've been completely immersed in this new lifestyle for 15 weeks now and it's been a very long and hard road. I'm tired, both physically and mentally and so badly want to capture the attitude and excitement I had 11 weeks ago. Where did my motivation go? I've been pretty successful, averaging 2 pounds a week but it's not enough. It's not enough for me and it's not enough for my dietitian. I feel that if my numbers are less than 3 lbs in one week, I've failed. Forget the fact that I've never hit a plateau or gained weight during this time. Forget the fact that any loss is a success. It's just not enough. Gr. I'm fading here. For the last two weeks, I've missed the two workouts that I'm suppose to do on my own without my trainer. So for the past 14 days, I've only worked out 6 days instead of 10. My goal this week is to meet the 5 day requirement. In addition to my three days with Matt (Tues, Thurs, Sat), I'll be jogging with Charlie tomorrow afternoon (er, more like jog...walk...jog...walk...walk...walk...jog) and will be hitting the gym Friday night after work. Come hell or high water I'm doing this shit.
I'm not even half way to my goal weight, which is total BS by the way. According to all the calculators and charts, I should be no more than 145 pounds for my height. I haven't been 145 since I took Phen-Phen in the mid 90's for my first wedding. I was tweaked out of my mind. Itchy head, racing heart, crazy realizations that I had only eaten half a bagel by 9pm and wondered why I was fighting with everyone in my life and crying at the drop of a hat. That shit is evil...it works...but it's pure evil. I heard it's coming back on the market too. Stay away people, stay away!
So, if I listen to all the literature and stick with the charts, I have another 65 pounds to go. How deeply depressing is that? I'd be around a size 8 though, which sounds soooooo amazing. I'm only 1/3 of the way there. So here I go...chug, chug, chug, like the little engine that could.
I'm not even half way to my goal weight, which is total BS by the way. According to all the calculators and charts, I should be no more than 145 pounds for my height. I haven't been 145 since I took Phen-Phen in the mid 90's for my first wedding. I was tweaked out of my mind. Itchy head, racing heart, crazy realizations that I had only eaten half a bagel by 9pm and wondered why I was fighting with everyone in my life and crying at the drop of a hat. That shit is evil...it works...but it's pure evil. I heard it's coming back on the market too. Stay away people, stay away!
So, if I listen to all the literature and stick with the charts, I have another 65 pounds to go. How deeply depressing is that? I'd be around a size 8 though, which sounds soooooo amazing. I'm only 1/3 of the way there. So here I go...chug, chug, chug, like the little engine that could.
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Anti Gym
After 10 weeks of going to the gym 5 times a week, it's time to start thinking about alternative ways to exercise. I've been thinking of a bike.
The Specialized Langster Seattle is so cool looking.
The Specialized Langster Seattle is so cool looking.
I love the idea of getting a custom bike built by a woman for a woman, how fabulous and bad ass would that be? Really diggin this one from Sweetpea. Navy with fenders and leather grips and seat. Yum! But would I ride it?
Both seen on Not Martha, originally from Cool Hunting.
Perhaps a kid trailer for Charlie?
Sunday, June 1, 2008
Trish - did my legs look like this?
I called my best friend yesterday on my way to work. She couldn't talk, as she was running late trying to get her daughter to school, but answered the phone to share that she had a dream about me. I was a hot blonde in a ZZ Top video. Trish's dreams come true. It's weird, it's creepy, it's real. It's comforting to know what my future holds. I want feathered hair, fishnets, a leather miniskirt and the highest eff me heals ever.
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Week 4
Same as week 2/3 with 0 to 2 servings of low or non-fat cheese per day. This includes yogurt and cottage cheese.
Hard Cheese
Serving size is 1oz.
Hard cheese must be less than 6g of fat per oz. I know wat you're thinking. That any cheese that's light, sucks. And you're right about that, with just a few exceptions.
Babe Bell lite
Laughing Cow lite
Light Irish Cheddar
- All found at Trader Joe's.
The Irish Cheddar is amazingly good with apple slices (but you don't get fruits until week 5).
Other Dairy
Serving size for non-fat Greek Yogurt (Fage) is 1 cup, for non/low fat cottage cheese is 1/2 cup.
Fage is also amazing to dip apples into or dolloped over berries. Delish!
When eating cheeses you need to decrease the amount of protein you're eating as your main course.
Your day now looks something like this:
1100 to 1400 calories
30 to 45g fat
1 to 4 shakes
10 to 16oz protein (don't forget to count your cheese as a protein)
4 to 10 servings of vegetables
0 to 2 servings of cheese
4 servings berries (In your shakes or with a protein)
Hard Cheese
Serving size is 1oz.
Hard cheese must be less than 6g of fat per oz. I know wat you're thinking. That any cheese that's light, sucks. And you're right about that, with just a few exceptions.
Babe Bell lite
Laughing Cow lite
Light Irish Cheddar
- All found at Trader Joe's.
The Irish Cheddar is amazingly good with apple slices (but you don't get fruits until week 5).
Other Dairy
Serving size for non-fat Greek Yogurt (Fage) is 1 cup, for non/low fat cottage cheese is 1/2 cup.
Fage is also amazing to dip apples into or dolloped over berries. Delish!
When eating cheeses you need to decrease the amount of protein you're eating as your main course.
Your day now looks something like this:
1100 to 1400 calories
30 to 45g fat
1 to 4 shakes
10 to 16oz protein (don't forget to count your cheese as a protein)
4 to 10 servings of vegetables
0 to 2 servings of cheese
4 servings berries (In your shakes or with a protein)
Week 3
Exactly the same as week 2. My dietitian gave me the option of moving on to introduce cheeses or to stick with the simpler only veggies/protein/shake option. I stuck with simplicity.
Week 2
Same as week 1 but you get 4 servings of non starchy veggies, getting about 100 calories per day from vegetables.
1 serving = 1/2 cup cooked or raw or 1 cup leafy greens raw.
You can use salad dressing and sauces as a fat only if you have a very lean protein, but they must conform to these restrictions:
(<5g sugar, <5g fat, <400mg sodium/per serving)
1 serving = 1/2 cup cooked or raw or 1 cup leafy greens raw.
You can use salad dressing and sauces as a fat only if you have a very lean protein, but they must conform to these restrictions:
(<5g sugar, <5g fat, <400mg sodium/per serving)
Saturday, May 24, 2008
5 weeks of protein shakes - Week 1
The program started on April 17, so this past Thursday was officially our 5 week mark. I'll recap the last five weeks as I haven't been good about posting.
Calories per day - 1200 to 1400
Fat per day - 32 to 45
No simple carbs - berries only
Week 1
Nutrition
Breakfast - Protein shake with 1/2 C berries and 1 T of peanut butter (may favorite part of course).
Morning Snack - Protein shake with 1/2 C berries
Lunch - 5 oz of very lean or lean protein, protein shake with 1/2 C berries
Dinner - 5 oz of very lean or lean protein, protein shake with 1/2 C berries
64 oz. of H2O per day.
That's it! So limited, almost seems like you'd starve, but the weird thing is that you don't. You're actually incredibly full and I had a very hard time finishing my shakes each day. On the second day of the diet, I had a major, knock-you-off-your-feet headache, which they (the program docs) attributed to sugar detox. I believe it. There's no doubt in my mind that I've been addicted to sugar and bad carbs, no doubt. Oh and another thing about this diet...no cravings. With the exception of wine. I miss it like nothing else.
Workout
Let me start by saying I love my trainer...love him! Matt is the best and we instantly clicked from the first time we met. He reminds me so much of my cousin Brett. We have three appointments a week. Tues, Thurs, Sat, for an hour each. In addition to seeing Matt, I also go to the gym an additional two days a week for cardio. Not gonna lie, week one was hell. I have a fobia of gyms as I'm sure many people do. I've been a member of one gym or another for much of my life, but prior to this program, could count on my fingers and toes how many times I went. I hate gyms. I hate the people that go to gyms. I hate the smell, the sounds, the air. Yuck...disgusting, really.
The first day was full of "I can't do this" and "I can't do that's". He got me on the elliptical for the first time, damn that thing was awkward. I could barely do 10 minutes on level one at a speed of 3. Oh lordy! We also did some floor exercises. Leg raises. Oh, the leg raises. You lay on your back with your legs streached out in front of you, feet together. Now lift your legs without bending you knees keeping your feet together. REALLY!?!? I couldn't do ONE. I absolutely could not get my legs off the ground. No doubt the c-section I had last year contributed to my struggle, but man oh man! Dear Matt was so upbeat and positive the whole time and was probably shocked at the shape I was in, or maybe not. It was bad. I went home that night and set a goal of never saying "I can't do it". That's it, that's all, pretty simple and something I could stick to. I couldn't come up with any physical goals, since I had no idea what my body could or couldn't do at this point. So I stuck with the goal of a good attitude and it's paid off so far.
Calories per day - 1200 to 1400
Fat per day - 32 to 45
No simple carbs - berries only
Week 1
Nutrition
Breakfast - Protein shake with 1/2 C berries and 1 T of peanut butter (may favorite part of course).
Morning Snack - Protein shake with 1/2 C berries
Lunch - 5 oz of very lean or lean protein, protein shake with 1/2 C berries
Dinner - 5 oz of very lean or lean protein, protein shake with 1/2 C berries
64 oz. of H2O per day.
That's it! So limited, almost seems like you'd starve, but the weird thing is that you don't. You're actually incredibly full and I had a very hard time finishing my shakes each day. On the second day of the diet, I had a major, knock-you-off-your-feet headache, which they (the program docs) attributed to sugar detox. I believe it. There's no doubt in my mind that I've been addicted to sugar and bad carbs, no doubt. Oh and another thing about this diet...no cravings. With the exception of wine. I miss it like nothing else.
Workout
Let me start by saying I love my trainer...love him! Matt is the best and we instantly clicked from the first time we met. He reminds me so much of my cousin Brett. We have three appointments a week. Tues, Thurs, Sat, for an hour each. In addition to seeing Matt, I also go to the gym an additional two days a week for cardio. Not gonna lie, week one was hell. I have a fobia of gyms as I'm sure many people do. I've been a member of one gym or another for much of my life, but prior to this program, could count on my fingers and toes how many times I went. I hate gyms. I hate the people that go to gyms. I hate the smell, the sounds, the air. Yuck...disgusting, really.
The first day was full of "I can't do this" and "I can't do that's". He got me on the elliptical for the first time, damn that thing was awkward. I could barely do 10 minutes on level one at a speed of 3. Oh lordy! We also did some floor exercises. Leg raises. Oh, the leg raises. You lay on your back with your legs streached out in front of you, feet together. Now lift your legs without bending you knees keeping your feet together. REALLY!?!? I couldn't do ONE. I absolutely could not get my legs off the ground. No doubt the c-section I had last year contributed to my struggle, but man oh man! Dear Matt was so upbeat and positive the whole time and was probably shocked at the shape I was in, or maybe not. It was bad. I went home that night and set a goal of never saying "I can't do it". That's it, that's all, pretty simple and something I could stick to. I couldn't come up with any physical goals, since I had no idea what my body could or couldn't do at this point. So I stuck with the goal of a good attitude and it's paid off so far.
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Happy Mother's Day to Me
I didn't mean to do it. I told myself I wouldn't. But I did. Tears on Mother's Day. I've had two Mother's Day's in my life and I've cried on both...and not happy tears either. Last year I can't even really remember the issue. Doing dishes and laundry possibly? No plans were made for me, I remember this one for sure. My present was incredible and possibly one of the best gifts I've ever received, my Nikon D80 camera. I remember it ending well but the start of it was a huge bust.
This year, even before the day started, at 8:00pm the night before, I was told "I don't have any plans for you for tomorrow". ERK! WHAT?! I was not a happy Mama. We were driving home from KC's parents house after a lovely afternoon to celebrate Mother's Day with him mom, on the ferry heading home. I spoke not one word the entire ferry ride. My first words to him on the subject were about half an hour after we arrived in Seattle and this is what I said. "I'm sad and disappointed and I can't believe you've done this again, made me cry for a second year in a row because you've made no plans, haven't gotten me a gift and didn't even think to get me a card". KC reminded me that he DID give me a gift last year and I've told him about 10 times since that it was the best damn gift ever. "Oh ya, sorry I forgot. Well, that doesn't take away from the fact that you've completely dropped the ball this year." He told me that wasn't true and he felt bad. I felt bad too.
Things blow over pretty quickly with us. It's one of the many reasons why we work. We laugh a lot, especially if we've had an argument or disagreement. It's hard to stay mad at KC as he's incredibly sweet and charming. So, needless to say it didn't take very long for us to make up and for him to start doing the dishes (our 1927 home has no dishwasher). After he was done, he asked me if I wanted to open up my gift. What? You really did get me something? Feeling like such crap now, really. What a boob I am. Of course I said yes because I have nil for patience. I closed my eyes and opened them to a nice Nordstrom box. Inside were a beautiful pair of Kate Spade 'Celeste' sunglasses.
This year, even before the day started, at 8:00pm the night before, I was told "I don't have any plans for you for tomorrow". ERK! WHAT?! I was not a happy Mama. We were driving home from KC's parents house after a lovely afternoon to celebrate Mother's Day with him mom, on the ferry heading home. I spoke not one word the entire ferry ride. My first words to him on the subject were about half an hour after we arrived in Seattle and this is what I said. "I'm sad and disappointed and I can't believe you've done this again, made me cry for a second year in a row because you've made no plans, haven't gotten me a gift and didn't even think to get me a card". KC reminded me that he DID give me a gift last year and I've told him about 10 times since that it was the best damn gift ever. "Oh ya, sorry I forgot. Well, that doesn't take away from the fact that you've completely dropped the ball this year." He told me that wasn't true and he felt bad. I felt bad too.
Things blow over pretty quickly with us. It's one of the many reasons why we work. We laugh a lot, especially if we've had an argument or disagreement. It's hard to stay mad at KC as he's incredibly sweet and charming. So, needless to say it didn't take very long for us to make up and for him to start doing the dishes (our 1927 home has no dishwasher). After he was done, he asked me if I wanted to open up my gift. What? You really did get me something? Feeling like such crap now, really. What a boob I am. Of course I said yes because I have nil for patience. I closed my eyes and opened them to a nice Nordstrom box. Inside were a beautiful pair of Kate Spade 'Celeste' sunglasses.
They make my nose look a little big and KC agreed. So I'm going today to exchange them for these 'Rae' glasses: 
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Dietitian
My commitment to this program is for 32 weeks (20 core, 12 maintenance), KC's is 24 weeks. During the first 20, I'll be seeing a dietitian once a week. Tomorrow is my first meeting. This is what I know about the food program. For the first couple of weeks, they'll have me on chicken and protein shakes to restart my system and make me go through a detox of sorts. From there, foods will be reintroducted one by one, based on my body chemistry. Everyone reacts differently to different foods, so while KC may be able to eat apples, I may not. I'm fascinated with how they go about doing this and excited to find out. I'll share what I can.
In anticipation of our gluttonous world coming to an end, KC and have taken some Seattle restaurants by storm. The mantra of "what do you want to eat for the last time?" will end tonight. Here is a list of some of the things we've enjoyed in the last couple of weeks:
Dick's, Deluxe Burger and Fries
Jak's, Petit Filet w/UFO and wine - TWICE
Taste of India, Chicken Tikka Masala
Skillet, Breakfast- TWICE
La Carta de Oaxaca, Mole
Rialto Pasta Bar & Grill, Dijon Chicken Penne - TWICE
Pagliacci Pizza
Snoose Junction Pizza
Cafe Besalu, Ginger Biscuit, Quiche, Chocolate Croissant - THREE/FOUR times
Oh and alchohol is O-U-T out! This will be the biggest challange I suspect. We've enjoyed a number of beautiful bottles the last few weeks and have come to terms with immediate banishment of our wine club shipments to the basement...for 32 weeks.
The list could be so much longer, but I'm tired and drawing a blank. Hm....what should we eat tonight?
In anticipation of our gluttonous world coming to an end, KC and have taken some Seattle restaurants by storm. The mantra of "what do you want to eat for the last time?" will end tonight. Here is a list of some of the things we've enjoyed in the last couple of weeks:
Dick's, Deluxe Burger and Fries
Jak's, Petit Filet w/UFO and wine - TWICE
Taste of India, Chicken Tikka Masala
Skillet, Breakfast- TWICE
La Carta de Oaxaca, Mole
Rialto Pasta Bar & Grill, Dijon Chicken Penne - TWICE
Pagliacci Pizza
Snoose Junction Pizza
Cafe Besalu, Ginger Biscuit, Quiche, Chocolate Croissant - THREE/FOUR times
Oh and alchohol is O-U-T out! This will be the biggest challange I suspect. We've enjoyed a number of beautiful bottles the last few weeks and have come to terms with immediate banishment of our wine club shipments to the basement...for 32 weeks.
The list could be so much longer, but I'm tired and drawing a blank. Hm....what should we eat tonight?
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